Hello All,
Let me start by introducing myself. My name is Ms. Kitty. I am 33 years old (God willing, I will celebrate my 34th birthday in May). I am married, 2.5 years and counting (I will celebrate my 3rd wedding anniversary, God willing, in May...May's a good month for me :-)). I live in the South...Alabama, to be exact. Been in Alabama all of my life. I am an only child. My husband and I currently have no children (although we hope to start a family someday). I'm employed as a Software Engineer, and I've been in that line of work for 10 years.
This is going to be a long one, so beware and prepare!
This is my first attempt at blogging. I created this blog primarily to serve as a diary of my weight loss efforts. You see, I am about 40 pounds overweight. I've been struggling with my weight since I was 21. Before I turned 21, I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain a pound! My weight fluctuated between 98 and 110 pounds, and I was a size 4/6. But, when I turned 21, things changed, and I mean they changed!!!! My metabolism must have gotten some molasses or something mixed with it, because since 1993, I have put on, umm, let's see...between 65 and 70 pounds. I am only 5'2", so you know this is too much weight for me to be carrying!
Since 1993, I have been on various diets. I've tried Slim Fast, the Cabbage Soup Diet, Atkins, and Phen-Fen. My most successful diet venture has been Weight Watchers, on which I lost 23 pounds. That was 5 years ago, when I was at 160 lbs and got down to 137--in my mind, a respectable weight. I wasn't skinny-skinny, but I wasn't fat, either. All of my clothing fit nicely...I was a comfortable and happy size 12 petite.
Now, at the beginning of this year, I've found that I am, according to my bathroom scale, at 170lbs (the scale at my doctor's office said 174, but I rather go by my bathroom scale...makes me feel just a tad bit better). This is my highest weight ever!!!! I am in a size 16 misses (a 16 misses petite size fits funny on me, so I have to go with the regular 16 Misses), or a 14 wp (women's petite, for those who don't know..and even a woman's petite is kinda snug), or a plain 14 woman (my most comfortable size). My highest size ever! My blood pressure has gone up, my cholesterol is high, and I generally feel just crappy. I look old and fat and matronly in pictures. My mother nags me constantly about my weight--she has weight issues also, and doesn't want me to follow in her footsteps. My husband, in a non-nagging way, has commented on my weight--after all, I gained 35 of these pounds after we got married...I guess it's true about marriage and happiness putting weight on ya!
You know, it wouldn't be so bad if I were pear shaped. I would kill for a small waist...currently, I have nothing that resembles a waist, just an indention going around my middle. I could also use some hips, as I have no curves worth mentioning in the lower half of my body, and skinny legs to boot. Unfortunately, I'm the dreaded apple-shaped. Yes, I gain all of my weight in my middle! So, that means that I have big boobs (38DD, up from 36DD last year...hard to believe that I started out as a 34B). I have--not one--but two stomachs! I have a big roll up top, right under my boobs, and a big round belly on the bottom...a pregnant looking belly at that! And, I have no butt! I'm a black woman, but you sure can't tell it from behind! I'm flat as a pancake! No bump in the back, nothing juicy for my husband to grab hold of, no roundness anywhere. Just flat and wide. I guess you can say I have a funky figure.
So, about three weeks ago, I decided (again), to do something about my weight. I had joined Weight Watchers online (for like the 5th time) in October, but of course I didn't do anything with it. I purchased a three month plan for $45. Well, that was $45 wasted. But, I've started it back up again in earnest, and I've been doing pretty good. So far, I've lost 5 pounds, and I can began to tell the difference, just a little bit. I figure that I'm not the only one struggling with weight, so I decided to create a blog to journal my efforts. Hopefully, people will read my blog and be encouraged, get a laugh, send tips, commiserate, or whatever. In my mind, going public with my efforts would keep me honest and focused about the whole endeavor. After all, nothing's worse than failing in public! Well, actually, there are worse things, but no need to digress...
I chose Weight watchers because it actually works for me, and I can eat whatever I want to eat. I can't stand anybody telling me what I can and can't eat. I know some people don't like food plans where they have to count things, but I don't mind counting the weight watcher's points, as long as I can eat whatever I want to eat! For those who are interested in Weight Watcher's program, here's the link: www.weightwatchers.com.
What's my goal? Well, I have several. My short-term goal is to get below 160 (I'm 5 pounds away from that). My 1st mid-term goal is to lose 3-5 pounds a month. My 2nd mid-term goal is to get back down to my wedding weight (between 137 and 140). My long term goal is to get down to 125 lbs. I don't want to be anorexic skinny like I was in college, I just want to be nice and curvy and healthy looking!
Well, I'm tired of typing...my shoulder aches, and I want some ice cream (Healthy Choice ice cream, of course!). I'm going to close now. I'll try to blog every day, although I'll probably miss a day or two during the week. In the meanwhile, stay sweet and stay blessed!
Ms. Kitty
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